Spent nine hours at the hospital. 4 hours in deep sleep. Before I fell asleep the nurses advised me to think about something nice, "you can influence your dreams during general anaesthetic" they told me. And so I did.
Closed my eyes thinking about walking in the forest.
When I woke the nurses told me that I had smiled the entire time. And I could feel in every cell of my body that they were right. I did smile, also within!
Cause I dreamt of this amazing woman who passed away 3,5 years ago.
It felt as if she was still there, when I woke, and when I drank the cold lemonade offered to me right after awakening, and I noticed how extremely pleasent cold lemonade can feel in your mouth and throat, in a situation like that, I recall her last hours awake, and the pleasure and gratitude she expressed whenever my son proudly brought her new cold lemonade to her bed.
Thank you grandma for being there with me today!